Welcome to a story God is still writing.

A day spent preparing space for togetherness—marked by thoughtful gestures, shared laughter, and an undercurrent of concern about where care ends and compromise begins.

Scripture: Proverbs 14:29

The Reactionary Survivor once protected me when emotional and financial stability felt fragile. This chapter reflects on how survival instincts shaped my responses—and why learning to pause is now essential to becoming.

Scripture: Romans 8:38-39

Growing up without love taught me to believe I was unworthy of it. This chapter reflects on how absence shaped my identity, how that belief followed me into relationships and faith, and how I am still learning to unlearn it.

Scripture: Ezekiel 18:20

Some patterns repeat because they're easy. Others repeat because they're familiar. This chapter reflects on the parts of my childhood I'm consciously trying not to recreate—and the quiet resistance that comes with choosing a different path as a father.

Scripture: 1 Timothy 5:8

Before I ever dated anyone, love felt simple. It meant providing, supporting, and showing up responsibly. This chapter explores how that definition formed early—and how its simplicity later revealed both strength and limitation.

A day shaped by routine, quiet effort, ad lingering questions—learning how to stay present with someone while wrestling with uncertainty about emotional reciprocity.

Scripture: Psalm 55:4-5

Some of the most frightening moments of my childhood weren't the punishments themselves—but the waiting. The hours where my body braced for something I couldn't control.

A long day of shifting schedules, unexpected caregiving, and emotional contrasts—juggling more than planned while slowly realizing where stability and connection truly live.

Over time, certain things stop being flexible without any formal decision. Sleep, peace, boundaries, and energy quietly become non-negotiable. This piece explores the small shifts that happen as experience reshapes priorities.

Scripture: Psalm 37:4

There's a future I carry quietly — one shaped by love, family, and second chances. I don't talk about it much, not because it's small, but because it matters too much to handle carelessly.

Scripture: 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

Loss has taken many forms in my life. This chapter reflects not only what I lost—but what my responses to grief, shock, and heartbreak revealed about who I am and where I still need to grow.

Scripture: John 10:10

For most of my childhood, I didn't know there was a difference between surviving and living. It wasn't until I became homeless at seventeen that I realized how much of my life had been about endurance, not experience.

Scripture: John 15:13

Before children, responsibility was about managing life. After children, it became about giving parts of myself away. This chapter reflects on how fatherhood redefined responsibility as sacrifice—and why that cost is inseparable from love.

Scripture: Isaiah 49:15

Love growing up wasn't something I felt consistently—it was something I observed, survived, or interpreted through absence. This chapter explains how provision, distance, and unpredictability shaped the way I learned to understand love.

Scripture: Psalm 10:14

Avoiding attention wasn't about being quiet or obedient. It was about staying safe in a world where being seen often came with consequences.

A cascade of appointments, interruptions, and unresolved problems—learning how quickly exhaustion builds when life refuses to slow down, and why knowing when to stop matters.

Not all exhaustion comes from doing too much. Some of it comes from always being the steady one—the problem-solver, the calm presence, the person who holds everything together. This reflection explores the kind of tiredness rest doesn't always fix.

A day shaped by appointments, waiting rooms, and small acts of care—showing up gently, staying present, and holding space for love even when it's met with hesitation.

Most people carry an unspoken idea of who they thought they'd be by now. When reality doesn't line up with that expectation, it can feel unsettling. This reflection explores the quiet gap between imagined timelines and the lives we're actually living.

Scripture: Ecclesiastes 9:10

I used to think tomorrow would arrive with clarity or change. Lately, it shows up quietly — and I'm learning that might be the point.