Small Wins, Heavy Thoughts, and Trying Anyway

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Small Wins, Heavy Thoughts, and Trying Anyway

Summary

Between school runs, doctor visits, and my first lawn job back in years, the day carried both small wins and quiet frustrations. I'm trying to rebuild income, encourage dreams, and stay present in a life that feels increasingly resistant to forward motion—but I showed up anyway.

Trying to work, trying to love, and still showing up
Published Jan 27, 2026 Updated Jun 14, 2026 4 min read

This chapter is personal reflection, not professional advice. If a topic feels heavy, pause and take care of yourself. For urgent or crisis support, visit When You Need More Help.

Some days carry more than one kind of pressure. This Daily Page reflects on trying to rebuild income, stay present in relationships, and keep showing up when small wins and heavy thoughts occupy the same day.

A Monday Morning Routine

January 26, 2026 started like most Monday mornings—getting the kids off to school and settling into the usual routine. Once that was done, I took Eve to get her blood work done. She jokingly calls it "getting stabbed by the vampires" and likes to tease me about how I let people stab her. While we were there, we ended up chatting with the woman drawing her blood about Eve's interest in becoming a phlebotomist.

The irony wasn't lost on any of us—Eve doesn't like needles. When I pointed that out, Eve laughed and said it's different when you're the one doing the poking. The phlebotomist chimed in and confirmed that, yes, you still have to practice on real people while learning. We all laughed about it, but underneath the joking, I genuinely tried to encourage Eve. I told her I'd help her get her GED so she could pursue college if that's the path she wants. I believe in pushing people toward their dreams, even when they're scared of parts of the process.

A Brief Pause

After the appointment, we stopped by my house for a bit and watched Big Momma's House. It was one of those moments meant to be light and easy. I tried to be close with her, but she wasn't in the mood, and I didn't push it. I took her home shortly after, then headed out to pick up the kids from school.

Back to Landscaping — A Small Win

After dropping my daughter off, I went out to mow, weed eat, and blow a yard for a woman who needed some work done. It was my first lawn job since getting back into landscaping. Nearly two hours later—counting drive time—I made $33, minus expenses.

Financially, it wasn't great. But emotionally? It mattered.

That is why How Patience Helps You Build Lasting Success connects to this day for me. Rebuilding income does not always begin with impressive numbers. Sometimes it begins with one small job, one discouraging result, and the patience to keep building anyway.

I've owned and worked in landscaping on and off for 18 years, more on than off. It never made me rich, but it sustained me, and there were brief seasons where it was actually decent income. Now, it feels harder than ever. Online advertising—especially free, organic posting—is completely saturated. If you're not popular or paying for ads, your posts disappear into nothing.

Door-to-door work isn't much better anymore. People don't see someone trying to earn an honest living—they see a "suspicious person" and talk about calling the police. Since when did trying to work and support your family become something people look down on? At least I'm trying to earn money the right way instead of doing something illegal just to survive.

An Awkward but Human Moment

Later that evening, I went back to Eve’s house and spent some time with her. What started as a quiet moment together turned into one of those awkward reminders that privacy is not always easy when other people are nearby.

It was not a major conflict. Just a human moment that left me feeling a little exposed and unsure how to process it. Eve seemed more comfortable with the situation than I was, and I realized I am still learning how different people carry privacy, closeness, and embarrassment differently.

Ending the Day

After everything settled down, I went home, played my game for a little while, and finally went to bed. It wasn't a perfect day. It wasn't a terrible one either. It was one of those days made up of small moments—some encouraging, some frustrating, some uncomfortable—but all real.

And right now, real is enough.

About the Author

Written by Donald Faulknor

Donald Faulknor is the creator of Our Unfinished Story, a Life Library of faith, fatherhood, heartbreak, healing, becoming, and rebuilding. His writing is rooted in lived experience, personal reflection, and the ongoing work of finding meaning in unfinished seasons.

These chapters are personal reflections, not professional counseling, legal advice, medical advice, or crisis support. They are written to help readers feel less alone, find language for what they are carrying, and continue the story with care.

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